They say those who study psychology are diagnostically crazy themselves. So, here I sit with a bachelors in psychology and no where closer to understanding my own mental illness. It’s been my constant companion all my life.
My mother is a narcissist with a drinking problem and my father is a hippie in his own right. Addled by years of heavy drug use and existential thinking. He finds spirituality in books and bottles. My brother? Well, let’s just say he airs on the side of caution and isolates himself. His social anxiety and stuttering fit right into place with that life. Then there’s myself, take all their vices and genetic demons and mix them in a big pot. Add in a dash of emotional instability and a sprinkle of despondency and you’ve got me. An excessively anxious twenty something searching desperately to understand her inadequacy and insanity. My story won’t always be uplifting, if you’re looking for a tale of sobriety and recovery then move along. It’s bursting with troublesome coping methods and assorted dark days. I don’t pretend to know how to live happily with mental illness, but I’ve made it this far and I think that’s something.
I created this blog to reach out to others who feel similar and work to end the stigma of mental illness finally.
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Hey there. I really like what you said about yourself when I checked out your home page. I love how you mentioned “normal”. And really, mental illness does seem to be becoming the normal for so many. I, myself suffer with anxiety disorder and depression. I am totally happy with my life, family, faith, etc, however, if I’m not on my meds “Watchout”. Anyhow, I look forward to checking out your blog.
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Staci
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Thank you for your story. I wish you the best in your struggles with mental illness, and, of course, hope that you are receiving the psychiatric and psychological care that you need.
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Wanna be a Cut-Throat? I think you already are :)
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Come see me.
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Please come check your welcoming post when you get the chance…proud to have you aboard as an “original”. Hugs! AIJ
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Your honesty is refreshing. The world needs people like you to speak into spaces that often feel silent, vacant. Your experience and your strength in telling is comforting, thank you for reaching in, I look forward to reading:)
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Thank you so much :)
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I don’t know if you have received this but oh well…I nominated you for the Liebster Award! http://avictimsjournal.wordpress.com/2014/03/20/liebster-award/
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Thank you <3!
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I have nominated you for the Brave Heart Award. If you would like to accept it, please go to http://turkeyboneheaven.com/2014/03/22/brave-heart-award-announcement/ for details.
Stand Strong You Are Not Alone
I call you a survivor, because that is what you are. There are days when you don’t feel like a survivor and there are days when the memories trigger your past and it feels like you are loosing the fight – but you are not. Take the past and heal with it. You are strong. I want you to know that the abuse was not your fault. It does not matter what age it happened. You did not deserve it, you did not cause it, and you did not bring it on yourself. You own no shame, guilt, or remorse. In your life, you have faced many demons but look around you and you will see there is hope, and there is beauty. You are beautiful, You are loved, there is hope. You deserve to be loved and treated with respect. You deserve peace and joy in your life. Don’t settle for anything less than that. God has plans for you. Your future does not have to be dictated by your past.
Each step you take you are not alone.
Stand Strong.
The Redheaded Wonderblog
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You are very inspiring and I just nominated you for a Sunshine blogger award!
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‘An excessively anxious twenty something searching desperately to understand her inadequacy and insanity.’ You might just as well have written about me. I look forward to reading more of you on this…journey? Much peace. x
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I look forward to reading yours as well. :) Though I am sorry you can relate to this.
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I really like your blog and you’re doing a great job here. So, I’ve nominated you for the Sunshine Award! More info here http://avalancheofthesoul.wordpress.com/2014/04/09/sunshine-award-and-why-im-a-thistle/
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I imagine you are touching so many with your blog. At least I hope that is the case. SO many suffer from mental illnesses and they are left voiceless.
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I nominated you for The Liebster Award,,,for more info: http://breakdownchick.wordpress.com/2014/04/27/the-liebster-award/
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I love blogs with a purpose! So many are here to end the stigma in mental illness. I made my goal to end the stigma of a ‘less then perfect mind’ which is more or less the same idea but I appreciate what you’re doing!
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Thank you ! I appreciate you as well !
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Hey. You should email me and we should be email friends. I like you, for some reason you’re one of the few few few BPD blogs that I really relate to. I think that we go through very very similar things and I also think that we both could probably use a friend. I’m going to delete this comment after you respond to it; just let me know what you think. My email is maniccottoncandy@gmail.com.
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I emailed you !
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Your descriptive and powerful first person account of living with BPD, OCD, and GAD moves me so much that I have nominated you for the Very Inspiring Blogger Award at http://kittomalley.com/2014/06/06/very-inspiring-blogger-award/. Thank you for sharing your experience. In doing so you help us to overcome the stigma of mental illness.
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Hey Kiddo
You there???
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