borderline feelings


I am bursting with excessive passion and nothing excites me

Pinpointing every emotion bleeding from my temporal lobes while fighting through the fog of dullness

There is no energy left in my body as I am crawling up the walls with anxious uncertainty

I feel nothing while I am feeling everything

Captivate as I evade, center of attention in the corner 

Heart exposed and full while the door is locked from the inside

indebted to those who love me with conviction that I am scorned

I am the true walking contradiction that has been contemplated for decades




Filed under Mental Illness

14 responses to “borderline feelings

  1. Hil

    Beautiful words, as always.


  2. This really resonated with me. Every word I read was me looking in a mirror. I was just diagnosed with borderline personality disorder and knew nothing about it. I’ve been upset about the diagnosis but these words really made me feel that I’m not alone. Someone (you) understands exactly what I experience. Oh thank you! :)

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  3. Remarkable.
    I mean, I don’t remember you asking to record my thoughts !!
    : )

    It’s so tough being us. I know- we are definitely , and absolutely women who encapsulate the word contradiction.
    We are oxy moronic and it seems that our worlds lack the colour grey , and the ability to be monochromatic.

    Just walking polarities , exhibiting both ends simultaneously.
    Thanks for writing your view , I always enjoy thoroughly.

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  4. Isn’t this piece absolutely amazing!!??! Mirrors many of us! I love it!

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  5. Reblogged this on Inside The Mind Of A Borderline Mother and commented:
    Isn’t this piece absolutely amazing!!??! Mirrors many of us! I love it!


  6. I feel a bit like that sometimes. Especially the feeling everything and nothing (and all of it negative).


  7. Reblogged this on elliesofia and commented:
    This mirrors exactly how i feel, living with BPD. Thanks, my friend x <3


  8. Reblogged this on Ellie Sofia with comment: This mirrors exactly how i feel, living with BPD. Thanks my friend x <3


  9. catastrophic cat

    WOW – sheer brilliance in your ability to put such complicated and contradicting thoughts and feelings, into words that make sooo much sense and completely nails it. Thank you!! I now have something to refer to, and quote on when I’m being ‘probed’ or questioned, and proof that I’m not a weirdo or alone in feeling or thinking this way. I hope that’s not committing any infringement in any way, as I have no idea bout that stuff, just wanted to share my appreciation and gratitude for your poetic fineness :)


    • Thank you so much for your kindness. :) I’m glad I could put into words how you feel and I would be more than happy if you used it to help explain your feelings to others. Thanks for reading!


      • catastrophic cat

        Warm fuzzies back at ya :) thanks for the reply. By the way I’m lovn your blog name, so apt, as I’m sure most of us can relate to!


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